I Find Her Disgusting Chapter 77

Yan Huirou carefully put away the sword manual. “Thank you.”
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Jiang Xidai let out a quiet sigh of relief.
Like a limb that had been bound for too long, numb from lack of blood, she only felt a slight sense of relief after this string was loosened, feeling the warm blood flow back to a place that had almost withered.
But her happiness didn’t last long…
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What?
Jiang Xidai’s breath hitched again.
But Yan Huirou’s face was as usual, showing no sign of any change.
Perhaps the only slight difference was that Yan Huirou’s thumb was pressing against her fingertip, tracing it lightly.
But this action was too subtle for Jiang Xidai to see.
Yan Huirou had been pleased in her heart, but then she remembered the thoughts she had before entering the hall. She hadn’t expected that the feelings that had taken so many days to gradually calm would be rekindled by Jiang Xidai’s actions.
That little seedling was truly a nuisance. It couldn’t be starved, couldn’t be pinched off. Even after ten days or half a month without water, a casual splash of tea could bring it back to life.
And so, this affection was covered with a layer of dust, and a bit of resentment was born instead.
Jiang Xidai thought it over and over, but she really couldn’t understand how the favorability had dropped—Yan Huirou’s favorability was as unpredictable as its inexplicable rise before, completely without a pattern.
Was it because I was indirectly urging her to practice the sword?
Why? She had never been unhappy about this before.
Perhaps, perhaps she still doesn’t want to see me…
Jiang Xidai didn’t think about it in detail. She probably didn’t want to accept this point. But even if she wanted to get close to Yan Huirou, she had forgotten that she was never good at getting close to others in the first place.
“Where’s the jade pendant? Did it fall off?”
Jiang Xidai looked at her more carefully, feeling that something was missing from her waist, but the person had clearly been wearing it before she left.
This question had a sense of desperation, of trying to find something to say.
Yan Huirou smiled. “No.”
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“…”
Sect Master Jiang lowered her head and rubbed her brow, feeling a sense of powerlessness. She sighed, her expression weary as she leaned back, just lifting her lashes to trace her face.
What is it dropping for now?
“Mm…” Jiang Xidai decided to go along with her. “If you really don’t like it, should I get you a new one?”
Yan Huirou: “The jade is good jade. To change it casually would be too extravagant. It’s better not to.”
“It’s not extravagant at all. The Shasheng Sect is not like those small, shabby immortal sects.”
“Yes,” Yan Huirou said gently. “For the Sect Master, it’s not a rare thing. It can be given away to anyone, at any time. But this is very precious to me. If I had a new one, I definitely wouldn’t want the old one, so I don’t want to waste it.”
Jiang Xidai: “I was very fond of this style in my early years. Only two were made from the same piece of material. Where have I been giving them away casually?”
She felt that the one with the flower suited her better, so she had kept it for herself.
“That’s different from the beads and bracelets, I’ve only given it…”
Wait a minute.
Only given it to two people.
Jiang Xidai completed the sentence in her mind and then thought of the fluctuating favorability of Zhan Ke displayed in the System.
She was suddenly stunned.
The two of them had met this time.
Yan Huirou had worn it when she left, but had taken it off when she returned. Something must have happened outside that caused a change in her state of mind.
After all, it was just a piece of jade, and it could protect her life. Why would she have a problem with this inanimate object?
“Did Zhan Ke tell you?”
Jiang Xidai frowned. “What did she say? Did she do anything to you? Don’t just believe her words.”
“It was nothing. She wasn’t particularly warm to me, but not bad.” Yan Huirou lowered her head. “She even analyzed the pros and cons for me. Invited me to Lanyue Pavilion to enjoy the scenery. Although it wasn’t very sincere.”
Jiang Xidai: “How could there be such a thing for you? I’m afraid it was ten-tenths insincere.”
Yan Huirou maintained this posture of a lowered head, and after a long pause, she said in a quiet, dark voice, “Perhaps that sincerity is still a little more than the Sect Master’s.”
“At least, she didn’t stab me.”
She said tactfully.
“You—”
After not seeing her for half a month, when Yan Huirou deliberately chose not to be understanding, her words were even a bit harsh, stabbing right into her heart.
Jiang Xidai felt that the female lead was being led further and further astray by her, gradually losing some of the good qualities that the world saw.
For example, seeing through but not exposing, speaking to people in a way they would understand, being frank and straightforward, gentle and polite, respecting the old and loving the young.
But these old scores with Yan Huirou were becoming more and more endless.
Jiang Xidai was about to get angry, but on second thought, she was unwilling to suffer this endless torment alone in Qionghua Hall.
She decided to be a bit more practical and not try to go head-to-head with the eloquent little female lead in this regard.
Yan Huirou stood up. It was about time, and her mood was almost gone, so she decided to take her leave.
But she couldn’t get up.
Yan Huirou’s whole body stiffened, her shoulder being held down.
She felt a familiar dark fragrance wash over her, luring her from a distance, then close up. A weight pressed down on her shoulder, and two strands of black hair obediently slid down.
Jiang Xidai had moved closer to her.
Yan Huirou looked at this face up close and couldn’t help but shrink back a little.
But for every step she retreated, Jiang Xidai leaned in a step.
“What are you doing?”
A finger pressed against her lower lip.
Jiang Xidai slowly, tentatively, leaned down and, pushing forward, rested her chin on her shoulder, her breath almost entirely on her neck.
Yan Huirou: “We agreed.”
Jiang Xidai didn’t speak, as if she had decided to forget their previous agreement and pretend nothing had happened.
She reached out and stroked the corner of Yan Huirou’s lips, feeling the natural curve there. Even when she wasn’t smiling, it was upturned, making her look very good-tempered.
Yan Huirou frowned and grabbed her wrist. “Is this going to be like before?”
Jiang Xidai shook her head, she hesitated for a moment and lowered her voice. “…Yan Huirou, can you stay today?”
Yan Huirou stared at her silently for a moment, not moving.
Jiang Xidai sighed and melted into her arms like she had no bones, her nose brushing against Yan Huirou’s neck again.
She craved, craved this hard-won embrace.
After a long time.
Yan Huirou finally, in her heart, slowly found her own voice.
You still don’t know what I want.
But Jiang Xidai’s actions were very clear. She probably just wanted the comfort of a hug. To soothe the loneliness of a boring time.
“You’ve already refused, haven’t you?” Yan Huirou frowned. “Since that’s the case, you shouldn’t…”
A damp sensation came from her shoulder. Yan Huirou silently endured it. She felt the woman slowly rub against her, and even bite her there.
What was even more heart-pounding was that after a moment of pain, it turned into a semblance of a lick.
Yan Huirou heard her own heart pounding, the blood rushing through her body, her hands tingling.
She stiffly pressed against Jiang Xidai and finally gathered some strength, pushing the woman away.
If the woman’s expression was like a full moon in the water, already glowing with a pale light, and had only brightened a little from being close.
Now, with Yan Huirou’s push, her gaze was dazed for a long while, then it shattered.
A scattered mess.
“…Why?”
Yan Huirou shook her head, stopping her from saying more. “I don’t want to maintain such an ambiguous relationship with you anymore. Sect Master Jiang, this is not appropriate.”
So close, yet so far. This was very painful for her.
Yan Huirou stood up. For a moment, her hands were numb, a residual blush on her face. She wanted to leave in a pathetic state, but as she held her clothes and walked to the door, the two heavy doors slammed shut with a bang.
Motionless, it was frightening.
A chill came from behind Yan Huirou. She suddenly felt the world spin, and the next moment, she was pressed against the door.
The force was not light, as if afraid she would leave. It made her let out a muffled grunt, and she vaguely saw a shadow leaning over her.
Yan Huirou was forced to tilt her head back, her neck held by a well-defined hand.
Her eyes widened slightly as she looked at the woman’s stunning face up close. When the other person was in turmoil, her eyes turned cold, and the sense of pressure was extremely strong.
“You said you were going to investigate the situation, to get close to that boy, fine. But why did you have to smile so happily at him? Why did you give Su Yuxi black iron? And why did you go and stay at Xie Minting’s place for a few days?”
“I was the one who picked you up first. I was the one who first guided you on the path of cultivation, the one who first accompanied you to retrieve the sword.”
“I met you first.”
Her voice was trembling slightly, and she couldn’t help but tighten her grip.
“Why, why… why is it that you treat me now, not even as well as those irrelevant people?!”
The force on her neck was impossible to ignore, sometimes tight, sometimes loose.
Yan Huirou said with difficulty, “Sect Master…”
Those bewitching eyes seemed to have lost some of their light, leaving only a deep sorrow. Her pupils reflected Yan Huirou’s slightly distorted face from suffocation, her eyes unmoving, staring intently at Yan Huirou’s face.
“Let…”
Her hand tightened unconsciously.
Like a snake strangling its prey.
Until Yan Huirou was panting in pain, her voice weak. “Let go…”
“Let go…”
Jiang Xidai was oblivious. A bruise also appeared on her own neck, but she seemed completely unaware.
Yan Huirou felt the taste of blood in her throat. Her vision was already going black, and she instinctively pulled at Jiang Xidai’s hand. “I’m going to die…” If this continued, Jiang Xidai would kill both of them.
Hearing the word “die,” Jiang Xidai finally snapped out of it and let go, panting. She only then realized she had barely been breathing, and a metallic taste filled her lungs.
She took a deep breath, coughed violently, and wiped her hand, a trace of blood on her lips.
And Yan Huirou was leaning against the main gate, drenched in sweat, also panting heavily, her face as pale as paper, as if half her life had been drained away.
The little brat’s lips had turned purple, and only now was there a trace of life in her.
Jiang Xidai only then realized what she had done.
For a moment, she had almost followed her instinct and strangled Yan Huirou to death.
All the strength drained from Jiang Xidai’s body. Without a thought for herself, she quickly took out a pill and fed it to Yan Huirou. At the same time, she rubbed the clear red mark on her neck until the traces had faded a lot.
“I’m sorry, I… didn’t mean to…”
Jiang Xidai lowered her eyes, her orchid-like fingers dabbing at a box of ointment, her movements very careful as she applied it there.
Her hair fell down, hiding all her obscure expressions. Yan Huirou could no longer see her face clearly, only from her slightly trembling fingertips could she feel her fear.
Yan Huirou sighed in her heart. She wasn’t angry.
Jiang Xidai seemed at a loss for what to say for a moment and could only repeatedly apply the ointment to the bruise there, even continuing to apply it in a cover-up manner after it had faded.
Yan Huirou took her hand. “Alright, stop applying it. It’s already fine.”
The woman’s hand paused. She finally put the ointment back into her Storage Ring, her lashes still not lifted.
Seeing her expression, even if Yan Huirou wanted to blame her, she couldn’t say anything harsh.
“There are many people in the world, Sect Master. I can’t just not see anyone. I still have to interact with some.”
“Like a person living independently in the world, there will always be friends, family, lovers, and allies… these are all very normal things. Interacting with these people doesn’t mean they will replace anything.”
She had just been about to brush aside the hair falling by Jiang Xidai’s face when she saw that the woman had lifted her head, her eyes just red-rimmed.
“Why are you crying?” Yan Huirou was surprised for a moment, then tried to coax her, saying comfortingly, “The Sect Master used to laugh at me for crying, how come when it’s your turn… hm?”
The room was silent for a long time.
“Yan Huirou.”
She murmured, “But I only have you.”