Why Aren’t You Cultivating Immortality? (GL) Chapter 55

Bai Moqing did not answer Xiao Xing’s question. Instead, she asked, “Why did you come here?”
If she remembered correctly, Xiao Xing should have been in a meeting right now. Stopping a meeting halfway was not Xiao Xing’s style. Yet at this moment, Xiao Xing was truly standing in front of her.
Because of Sikou Yan? No. If Xiao Xing knew Sikou Yan had come here, she would not have asked that question just now.
Bai Moqing remembered what Sikou Yan had said. Sikou Yan had been so certain Xiao Xing would not know she had come here. Then…
Bai Moqing suddenly understood Sikou Yan’s purpose in coming. She wanted to tell Bai Moqing that even Xiao Xing, as the Heavenly Dao, had things she could not control.
But was that really all?
Seeing Bai Moqing lost in thought, Xiao Xing grew furious. Pain shot through Bai Moqing’s cheek. She came back to herself and found Xiao Xing gripping her chin hard.
“Mm, A-Xing, that hurts…” Bai Moqing immediately put on a weak expression, her misty eyes looking pitifully at Xiao Xing.
“Who kissed you?” Xiao Xing’s fingers tightened, pinching harder.
Bai Moqing pressed her lips together and grabbed Xiao Xing’s wrist. Under Xiao Xing’s cold gaze, she told her, “A-Xing, Sikou Yan came here just now.”
The name Sikou Yan was like an arrow made of ice, stabbing precisely into Xiao Xing’s heart and freezing the blood in her body. Xiao Xing went cold. She let go, then immediately pulled Bai Moqing into a tight embrace.
Xiao Xing did not want to admit it, but she could not deny it. In that instant, her heart hurt so badly she almost could not breathe. A fear of losing Bai Moqing spread from her spine to every part of her body.
Sikou Yan had come here, and Xiao Xing had not noticed at once. She had even let Sikou Yan take Bai Moqing away.
Her mind told her with perfect clarity that she could not lose Bai Moqing.
Feeling the chill coming from Xiao Xing, Bai Moqing raised her arms around Xiao Xing’s waist and gently stroked her back. “A-Xing, don’t worry. I’m fine right now.”
After holding her for a while, Xiao Xing took Bai Moqing to the bathroom inside the office bedroom.
She turned on the faucet, wet a towel, and wiped the mark at the corner of Bai Moqing’s mouth. “She left this lipstick mark?” Bai Moqing had never directly answered who had kissed her, but the words “Sikou Yan came here” were enough to show who had crossed the line.
Water ran softly. The towel brushed over her skin again and again. Bai Moqing turned off the faucet, lifted her head slightly, and looked at Xiao Xing, feeling the gentleness in her movements.
The bedroom was very quiet. There was only the faint sound of the towel sliding across skin. Xiao Xing frowned as she waited for Bai Moqing’s answer. After a long moment, Bai Moqing said, “A-Xing, Sikou Yan told me that as long as I kissed her once, I would remember everything.”
Xiao Xing’s eyes instantly chilled. Her hand stopped. “You kissed her first?” Her fingers clenched around the towel as if she wanted to crush it to powder.
“Of course not!” Bai Moqing hurried to deny it. “The only person I have ever wanted to kiss is you.” She pointed at the trace by her mouth and said, “This happened when I turned my head to dodge her. I used the God-Slaying Cauldron.”
Whether or not she wanted to remember everything was one matter. Sikou Yan alone was not worth trusting. She had Xiao Xing. If Xiao Xing was unwilling to return her memories, she could slowly wait.
In any case, in this life, she would be with Xiao Xing.
After hearing her answer, Xiao Xing’s gaze softened. Still, her heart remained sour. She pressed down her emotions and said lightly, “I know.”
At the time, she had been discussing an entertainment investment project with several investors. Suddenly, she sensed a God-Slaying power strong enough to destroy heaven and earth. When her divine sense swept out, she found Bai Moqing standing alone on the rooftop, the God-Slaying Cauldron floating in her hand, her eyes cold as she looked ahead as if staring at someone.
Xiao Xing withdrew her divine sense, found an excuse to pause the meeting, and left the conference room for the rooftop.
She raised her hand and continued wiping Bai Moqing’s mouth, again and again, until no trace of the lipstick mark remained. Then she tossed the towel into the sink, held Bai Moqing, and kissed her.
Cool lips, wearing the lipstick Xiao Xing liked, carried a familiar scent. This was the person she loved. Bai Moqing kissed Xiao Xing back.
Love filled her once-empty, drifting heart to the brim. Bai Moqing clutched the corner of Xiao Xing’s clothes and pressed closer, then closer still.
The world spun. The two of them fell onto the bed. The deep blue sheets made Bai Moqing’s skin look flawless and pale.
Xiao Xing looked at Bai Moqing with deep affection. Bai Moqing’s heart and body could only belong to her. Xiao Xing’s kisses turned lingering. The meeting waiting for her, the work waiting for her, all of it was thrown to the back of her mind.
Bai Moqing had once asked Xiao Xing why she lived like an ordinary person. Xiao Xing had said it was hard to explain in only a few words. In truth, the reason was very simple.
Without Bai Moqing beside her, her life was lonely and empty. If she did not live this kind of life, she would not be able to stop herself from looking for Bai Moqing.
Again and again they met. Again and again Xiao Xing cut away her love, erased Bai Moqing’s memories, and separated from her. In the end, they still could not escape the fate of falling in love.
“A-Xing.” A flush spread over Bai Moqing’s body. She hugged Xiao Xing and arched up to look at her. Her eyes were a little unfocused, but Xiao Xing’s reflection in them was clearer than ever.
Her eyes and her heart held only Xiao Xing.
Xiao Xing lifted her head and looked sideways at Bai Moqing, her gaze tender and deep. “Moqing, I’m here.” At the most critical moment, she stopped. “Xiao Mo, do you love me?”
Bai Moqing struggled to call Xiao Xing’s name. After a long pause, she answered, “I do.”
“I love you.” Gasping for breath, Bai Moqing spoke those three words in broken pieces. Bai Moqing did not know how exciting it was to hear “I love you” at a time like this. Xiao Xing lowered her head until their foreheads touched. Her voice was low and hoarse. “Not enough. I want to hear it again.”
Following Xiao Xing’s movements, Bai Moqing called her name again and again, saying “I love you” beside her ear.
On the top floor of the building, inside the hidden bedroom of the president’s office, Bai Moqing received Xiao Xing’s most tormenting and happiest punishment, all because Sikou Yan had kissed the corner of her mouth.
Only after two full hours, when all of Bai Moqing’s strength was gone, did Xiao Xing finally stop and let her go.
Bai Moqing was so tired she fell asleep. Xiao Xing carefully looked over her body. Her fair skin was covered with fresh red marks. As if sensing eyes on them, Bai Moqing shyly turned over and burrowed into Xiao Xing’s arms.
Xiao Xing pulled the quilt over them, held Bai Moqing tight, and patted her back. In a low murmur by her ear, she said, “Xiao Mo, countless times, I hoped you could fall for someone else. But when I truly saw even a little fondness for someone else in your eyes, I couldn’t help stopping it.”
Hearing Xiao Xing’s words, Bai Moqing, exhausted beyond measure, forced her sleepy eyes open a little. “Have I ever liked anyone else?”
In her blurry memories, there had once been someone she liked. Could that person not have been Xiao Xing?
“No. Every time, I appeared at just the right moment.” Xiao Xing raised a hand and stroked Bai Moqing’s cheek. Her fingers touched the space between Bai Moqing’s brows. A white light flashed, then sank into Bai Moqing’s body.
A memory that had been drawn away returned to Bai Moqing’s mind.
In pale apricot-white robes, carrying a sword and a flask of wine, Bai Moqing traveled freely through famous rivers and great mountains. After finding a mountain peak rich in spiritual energy, she cultivated on the summit.
Spiritual energy surged into Bai Moqing’s body along with her sword intent. With one sweep of her hand, her sword turned into a shield of flowing light. Bai Moqing sat cross-legged and recited the Heart-Clearing Mantra again and again.
When Bai Moqing opened her eyes, a woman in a flowing black brocade robe with wide sleeves suddenly appeared in her view, walking toward her step by step.
That was the first time she met Xiao Xing.
Some people made one fall at first sight. For Bai Moqing, the first time she saw Xiao Xing, joy rose in her heart.
They spent several months together on the peak. Bai Moqing’s heart stirred for Xiao Xing, but she did not dare reveal her feelings. Just as Bai Moqing was hesitating over how to confess, Xiao Xing spoke first.
When feelings deepened, everything happened naturally. Xiao Xing carried the drunken Bai Moqing into the room, removed all her clothes, and did the most wonderful thing in the world with her.
It was Bai Moqing’s first time. After the tearing pain came joy beyond words, sweeping over her like a flood and drowning them both. Their voices echoed through the room without end.
Bai Moqing had just been loved thoroughly. When that young first time suddenly replayed in her mind, she could not tell what night it was. Her heart tightened, and her body, still trembling with lingering pleasure, shook slightly.
Feeling the person in her arms tremble, Xiao Xing lowered her head to look at Bai Moqing. She kissed her forehead and the top of her hair, then smiled. “I told you, please me, and I’ll return your memories.”
There were many stolen memories, yet Xiao Xing had returned their first time to her. Bai Moqing bit her lip. Clearly, Xiao Xing had only returned it because Sikou Yan had provoked her.
The blurry figure in her memory now fully overlapped with Xiao Xing. The person she had once liked was Xiao Xing.
Bai Moqing bit Xiao Xing over the heart and said gloomily, “Xiao Xing, do you know that when I woke up the next day, I only remembered drinking all night? I remembered falling in love with someone at first sight and wanting to become Dao companions with her and cultivate immortality together. But I forgot her face, forgot her name, and even forgot those months we spent together…”
From then on, she never drank again.
She had forgotten so much. She had even forgotten that Xiao Xing had taken her first time that night.
Suddenly, Bai Moqing thought of a question. When had Xiao Xing given Bai Moqing her first time? Bai Moqing woke up from excitement, moved back, lifted her head, and looked curiously at Xiao Xing. But when she met Xiao Xing’s deep eyes, the words stuck in her throat.
She could not ask it directly.
Clenching her fists, Bai Moqing bit her lip and asked, “A-Xing, your first time…”
Before she could finish, Xiao Xing got out of bed. With her back to Bai Moqing, she quickly put on her clothes and said, “Rest here. I still have things to handle.”
She could not have been more obviously shy.
Bai Moqing smiled, hugged the quilt, rolled over, and closed her eyes to rest.
Suddenly, Sikou Yan’s words rang in her mind.
Do you want to know who you are? Kiss me, and you’ll remember.
Her heart stung sharply, as if pricked by a bee. Bai Moqing opened her eyes, stared at the ceiling, and murmured, “Who am I? Sikou Yan, who are you?”
Xiao Xing walked out of her office and found that An Huaigu and Tang Yue were both absent. She went farther and saw that Secretary Wen and Secretary Wang were also gone.
She lifted her wrist and checked the time. It was already the lunch break. She turned back toward her office.
When she reached the bedroom door, she heard Bai Moqing say in a voice so soft it was almost inaudible, “No matter who you are, you can’t separate me from A-Xing.”
Xiao Xing paused, then smiled.