After I Died My Dao Companion Drowns in Endless Regret Chapter 121

Fu Li Immortal Realm, Northern Continent.
Shi Wufang, Yan Danwo, the Phoenix Lord, and others battled against the five great primordial demons. The pressure on them was not small. Due to the flow of certain auras, the five primordial demons were not gradually weakening, but rather, their auras would flourish from time to time. But no matter what, they had to suppress the demons here.
The moment the Wu Xiang Imperial Seal disintegrated, everyone sensed it. A void appeared in the sky, a huge vortex absorbing everything. The cultivators practicing “Severing All Selves” were once again diminished by Daoist Xuan Yi’s power, and countless pure “True Selves” flowed towards the Profound Void. But the five great primordial demons, as the opposite of Daoist Xuan Yi, also managed to seize a portion. Their previous memories and cognitions had been suppressed. Now, with the disintegration of the imperial seal, they suddenly understood everything in the world. The five primordial demons also reacted, transforming into a black lotus. It was just that their consciousness was mixed, all sorts of miscellaneous auras intertwined, and the malevolent qi was overwhelming.
Shi Wufang and the others also realized the situation was not good. After everyone took pills to replenish their spiritual energy, their attacks became even more fierce. Behind that black lotus, a giant whose body was as majestic as a small mountain slowly manifested. His figure gradually solidified, and as he walked forward, the earth rumbled. He stared ahead expressionlessly, and with a flip of his wrist, he pressed down on the ant-like Daoist cultivators.
An immense pressure descended, as if the heavens and earth were collapsing. A clear cry of a Luan phoenix rang out, and the Phoenix Lord directly transformed into her demon body Dharma Manifestation, wrapping herself in a ball of crimson fire and flying upward! The fierce wind was sharp, destroying mountains and splitting the earth. Then, a brilliant sword light suddenly rose, slashing at the filthy, dark light swirling around the giant hand! This kind of action had been repeated countless times over the long years. After obtaining the “True Selves,” the primordial demons changed, and so did their Daoist techniques. At the edge where all sorts of lights intertwined, countless Daoist techniques collided and disintegrated, finally turning into a surging wave of qi that rolled outwards in all directions. The sound of ten thousand thunderbolts exploded. Amidst the rumbling, lightning roamed erratically, stretching on endlessly.
The power of the primordial demons had suddenly increased explosively, but Shi Wufang and the others were not to be outdone. After the Fu Li Immortal Realm returned to the divine realm, they were no longer confined to a single well. They had received many cultivation resources from their predecessors, and even a considerable amount of Jun Tian Purple Qi. The sound of collisions continued for a long time. None of Shi Wufang’s group retreated; they all pressed their entire spiritual power forward. It seemed like a long time had passed, and yet it was only an instant. The huge palm exploded with a roar, and endless black smoke and foul qi swept out in all directions. A crack appeared on the giant’s palm, and then it spread over the entire arm, flaking off like dust. The qi on the giant’s body churned for a while, but no new palm was regenerated.
“He’s not regenerating anymore,” Shi Wufang’s spirit was shaken, a flash of joy in her eyes. This meant that some kind of change had occurred in the higher realm, and it was a change that was beneficial to them! If so, they should press their advantage! The strength of the group rose again, and countless rays of potent light collided with the giant. In the end, the giant’s body shattered, transforming into five different colored lights that fell to the ground, their auras faint. For thousands of years, they could only seal the primordial demons, but now that their Daoist techniques had improved, they also had a way to completely erase them. The group naturally would not show mercy. One after another, vast spiritual powers pressed down. When the light scattered, the five primordial demons had completely disappeared. And the remaining young demons born from the countless non-selves were like water without a source, easily wiped away. Even if some remained, they were not a threat.
After both the true bodies and the opposites of the five lords were suppressed and destroyed, a certain profound change occurred throughout the Shang Qing Divine Realm.
The heavy pressure on the cultivators of the heart-cultivating Dao was lifted, and they were even nourished by a certain power. Their divine platforms became clear, and their auras rose, as if something was pushing them to take a further step.
“Those five have already perished.” Wei Yunshu’s voice rang in the minds of the Black and White Tai Suis, Si Jun, Yun Huai, and others. They all saw Wei Yunshu’s figure, but it was as if she were separated by countless dimensional spaces, looking profound and distant, unreachable. Although Si Jun and the others could distinguish a little from the rise and fall of the aura, when they truly heard Wei Yunshu’s words, they still couldn’t suppress their excitement and joy.
“But it’s not over yet,” Yun Huai was the first to come to her senses, speaking to Si Jun.
In the Fu Li Immortal Realm, there were only a few demons in the Northern Continent. But the Shang Qing Divine Realm was different. The scattered “non-selves” flowed about, and the demons born from them could not be killed in a short time. Moreover, a portion of the Demon-Hiding Caves had been broken through. With the five lords gone, the path of “Severing All Selves” had lost its way to the highest state of being and would gradually undergo changes. However, what had been left behind in the past would not be completely wiped out by the current changes. They had to push the major sects to return to normal and start cleaning up the demons.
Furthermore, besides the primordial demons, there were also the “Created Beings with Intelligence” to pay attention to. Because of Daoist Xuan Yi’s final move, the “non-selves” of most of the Severing All Selves cultivators had been forcefully stripped away and flowed into their Created Beings. Having lost their purest essence of “True Self,” their cultivation would surely be affected, but overall, the strength of the Created Beings was on the rise. They had to restrain their actions.
“Let’s take it one step at a time,” Si Jun said, letting out a breath of turbid air. They had waited thousands of years for this day.
“Should the Demon-Hiding Caves be destroyed in the end?” Yun Huai raised another question.
“No need,” Si Jun shook her head and replied. “The White Lord also mentioned this. But there are still a few Severing All Selves Dao cultivators around. If they are unwilling to change their path and still go to the Path-Walking Dao Palace to sever their selves, let the non-selves flow into the Demon-Hiding Caves. And if the disciples of the various sects want to train, they can also enter.”
In the past, the non-selves in the Demon-Hiding Caves were a process of continuous accumulation with nowhere to be discharged. Everyone feared the outcome, afraid that the demons would break through the restrictive formations. But now it was different. They had a way to completely whittle down the endlessly spawning demons, so they could keep this place for cultivation. Even if they wanted to erase it, it should be when no one in the entire divine realm was willing to practice the “Severing All Selves Dao” anymore. But that was a long time away. As more people entered the Dao and there were more Daoist techniques, it would be able to push the heavenly secrets to change from time to time. At that time, what everyone faced might be a new “obstacle,” but that was how the Heavenly Dao was, a “cycle” of change. The younger generations would then fight for their own Great Dao.
In the Dao Palace of the Wu Xiang Heaven Domain.
Wei Yunshu’s qi and intent gradually sank, and her starlight-like figure gradually solidified. This was the Dao Palace where the Wu Xiang Emperor had landed in the divine realm, a point between reality and illusion. But in the Dao Palace, Wei Yunshu did not sense the presence of the Emperor’s aura. The masterless Dao Palace was empty and desolate, filled with a chilling coldness. Suddenly, the sound of a heavy door being pushed open was heard. Wei Yunshu’s eyelids twitched. She turned her head and met the Black Tai Sui’s face, which was shrouded in dark clouds. Before she could say a word, the Black Tai Sui rushed over with her saber, slashing at her head, full of aggression, as if she wouldn’t be satisfied until she had landed a blow.
Wei Yunshu sighed silently. She stood where she was, letting the blade fall upon her, severing her right arm. But in less than a breath, everything was restored, and her aura was harmonious, without the slightest change. The Black Tai Sui was instantly deflated. She threw the saber to the ground and said to Wei Yunshu with a strange tone, “You now have the selves of three lifetimes in one body, and are untouched by all dharmas. Even if I cut you ten thousand times, you wouldn’t be affected. You have achieved your goal and are at the height of your success. What are you doing back at the Dao Palace? Do you also want to learn from mortals and return home in glory?”
“I came to find her,” Wei Yunshu said softly.
The Black Tai Sui sneered coldly. “The master is not in the Dao Palace.” After a pause, she added, “You are the flaw of the Great Dao. When the ‘flaw’ becomes the only one, it will become the complete ‘formless.’ You are walking step by step on the path of expelling the master. What are you doing here looking for her?”
Wei Yunshu was silent for a long moment before she finally asked, “Do you know where she is?” The Black Tai Sui’s words confirmed her guess. The Emperor was still in the world, just in a place she didn’t know.
“How would I know?” the Black Tai Sui said angrily, kicking the saber with the tip of her foot. Hearing the crisp sound of the saber hitting the ground, she slowly let out a breath of turbid air and added, “Unlike you, who is untouched by all dharmas, I am very busy. I still have many, many things to do.”
Wei Yunshu looked at the Black Tai Sui with suspicion. She didn’t quite believe these words. Based on her understanding of the White Tai Sui, other than matters like battle, nothing else would fall on the Black Tai Sui’s head. The Black Tai Sui easily saw through Wei Yunshu’s thoughts and became extremely angry. She pushed Wei Yunshu and shouted, “What are you still doing in the Dao Palace? Can you only wait? You can wait for ten thousand years and still not get a result!” Wei Yunshu lowered her head and let the Black Tai Sui curse at her. A long time later, the Black Tai Sui’s voice died down. She glared at Wei Yunshu, her tone lowering. “Why don’t you talk back? Or fight back?”
Wei Yunshu did not answer. She said “Thank you” to the Black Tai Sui, then turned and left the Dao Palace.
Not in the Wu Xiang Dao Palace, and impossible to be at the Academy.
Then where else could she quietly reside in this world?
Wei Yunshu’s brow furrowed. She soon knew the answer.
— The Fu Li Immortal Realm.
That was the place where her emotional self had gone through its cycles.
That was also the foundation of the Great Dao to which her qi and intent were connected.
It was a place that Daoist Xuan Yi could not devour.
With a sudden thought, Wei Yunshu’s qi and intent fell toward that place.
Compared to the chaos of the Shang Qing Divine Realm, the Fu Li Immortal Realm was calm and composed. After the demons of the Northern Continent were wiped out, the cultivators returned to the land of the Western Continent. But they could not stay in the land of the Western Continent forever. After the vast tide receded, the ravaged land was revealed again. The desolate land, which had been devoid of any vegetation, now sprouted new life under the nourishment of spiritual energy, flourishing with vitality.
Neither Shi Wufang nor Yan Danwo had cultivated to the realm where they could create spiritual veins with a single breath. But bringing life back to the land was not the only way. They were no longer cultivators forced to hide here. This was their home, and they had enough time to drive out the desolation and bring life back to the land. With the Western Continent as the center, the cultivators found many spiritual seeds and scattered them on the broken land, nourishing them with their spiritual power.
But just the nourishment of spiritual rain was not enough; the land needed earth qi to be nourished. The spiritual vein of the Western Continent no longer supplied only the Buzhou sect, but slowly pushed outward along the earth veins in all directions, intertwining with the spiritual rhythm hidden deep underground in a certain place. But back then, the three great spiritual veins had been detonated by the Cavern Heaven Dharma Manifestations and Dao artifacts. It was impossible for there to be any spiritual rhythm left underground. After she achieved the Dao, she had given back to the Fu Li Immortal Realm, but that had also entered from above, not been born from below. The only possibility was that someone had been quietly combing through the broken spiritual veins and earth veins. And the only one who could do this, besides the Emperor, Wei Yunshu could not think of anyone else.
Wei Yunshu distinguished the spiritual rhythms hidden in the earth veins one by one, but the spiritual rhythm was like playing hide-and-seek with her. Every time she was about to deduce the final answer, the aura would change again. Her heart, which had been quiet after achieving the Dao, rippled one after another. Wei Yunshu simply gave up on using her divine will to deduce, and instead truly descended to the Fu Li Immortal Realm, walking on the broken land following the memories of the past.
The Luoshui Divine Palace was gone, the clouds and water met, a boundless vista.
The floating islands of Cloud City had fallen, their broken walls and ruins scattered among the rocks, making it difficult to reconstruct the magnificent scene of the past when the cloud islands stood together.
All those past events had been mercilessly buried.
Did she suddenly erase her own traces from the world to escape the past?
Did she lead me down this path, never intending to be with me in the end?
Once the emotional self was transformed, was everything just a mortal illusion to her, easily brushed aside as if it never existed?
The further Wei Yunshu walked, the emptier her heart became. One question after another appeared, but she could not find a definite answer.
The Emperor had never promised, Yuan Chu had never explained, and Luo Lingfeng, along with all her love and hate, had been personally severed by them. If so, what was she looking for?
One after another, the sun rose and the moon set. Again and again, she revisited the old traces.
Joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness appeared and then disappeared. Her mind was always empty, desperately searching for something to fill it.
A moonlit night.
On a cliff, a desolate yet elegant snow lotus bloomed silently.
This lonely flower bloomed beautifully, and at the moment of its blooming, it stole all the splendor of the world.
Wei Yunshu gazed at it, as if she had returned to that day.
She had stood alone at the bottom of the cliff, waiting for the “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring” to bloom.
Back then, she had thought that this flower was very beautiful.
But later, as things changed, she gradually understood the deep meaning of “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring.” Her Dao companion would not give her a spring. They could only be trapped in the bitter cold of winter, helplessly watching everything come to an end.
Then she had let go of the “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring.”
Wei Yunshu walked softly along the edge of the cliff, reaching out to pick the “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring.”
Her eyelashes trembled gently, as if endless time had been erased.
She was about to pick this flower, and then return to Cloud City with a heart full of joy.
But her fingertips did not touch the “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring.” It was as if what was before her was only an illusory image, shattering bit by bit.
Wei Yunshu stood up, looking around in a daze. A long time later, she finally let out a soft laugh.
The Abyssal Vortex was a place of ambush, the place where the “Path of No Return” had sounded, but she only remembered that she had to bring the flower back.
But the person who was waiting for the “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring,” was she still in the same place?
“Do you give me whatever I want?” a voice suddenly pierced the quiet moonlit night and fell into her ears.
Wei Yunshu’s whole body stiffened. She looked up. On a rock not far away, a familiar figure stood tall and straight. White hair, red clothes, and a black cloak—it was the deepest imprint left in her heart after several lifetimes.
“I wanted the ‘Heaven’s Untouchable Spring,’ so you went to pick the ‘Heaven’s Untouchable Spring.’ Why couldn’t you think of looking for the ‘World’s Spring’?” the person stood on the rock, their tone mixed with a hint of coldness and ridicule.
Wei Yunshu gazed at her without blinking and said softly, “If I go look for it now, is it still in time?”
Luo Lingfeng crossed her arms and asked with a raised eyebrow, “What if I say it’s too late?” Her hair fluttered in the night wind, half-covering her face, and also concealing her fluctuating emotions.
Wei Yunshu laughed, a joy she had rarely felt before. The distance of several dozen feet disappeared in an instant, and in a flash, she had landed in front of Luo Lingfeng. She raised her hand and gently touched Luo Lingfeng’s eyes, saying seriously, “It’s in time.” The “Heaven’s Untouchable Spring” had long since withered. What she held now was a vibrant spring that belonged only to her.
Luo Lingfeng pressed down on Wei Yunshu’s hand and met her gaze with a sneer.
In the Abyssal Vortex, intertwined vines had formed a house, and countless fireflies flew among the green leaves. The wind blew, rustling, echoing the rise and fall of the insects’ chirping.
This was once the source of all Wei Yunshu’s pain, the most unbearable scene to look back on.
She had attached her soul to grass and trees for three years. From then on, she only wanted to move forward, to cast aside all love and hate.
Now she had returned to this place again.
“How did you disappear from the Profound Void?” Wei Yunshu asked softly, sitting shoulder to shoulder with Luo Lingfeng.
“How could I truly disappear? In a way, I am everywhere.” Luo Lingfeng raised an eyebrow. This avatar had disintegrated along with the three great spiritual veins, transforming into the Void Mystic Cave that covered the Fu Li Immortal Realm. But this was not a true disappearance. She was a congenital spirit and had also proven the past, present, and future selves in one person. As long as there was a wisp of aura, she could return. Therefore, when Wei Yunshu achieved the Dao and used the Fu Li Immortal Realm as the foundation of her Great Dao, her aura also took the opportunity to sink into the immortal realm, using the Heavenly Imprisonment Lock and Wei Yunshu. This place had become a flaw in the Great Dao, and Daoist Xuan Yi could not devour her existence here. So from beginning to end, Daoist Xuan Yi had never obtained the completeness he desired.
“Why didn’t you come looking for me?” Wei Yunshu said again. She didn’t ask Luo Lingfeng why she hadn’t told her everything. Because at that level, simply speaking of such things could very well trigger a change in the heavenly secrets. She just wanted to know why, after Daoist Xuan Yi had disappeared, she still hadn’t sensed Luo Lingfeng’s aura. And after she had arrived in the Fu Li Immortal Realm, that aura had quietly hidden from her, leaving not a trace in the old places.
Luo Lingfeng said coolly, “The flaw of the Great Dao moves forward, it becomes the completion of the Great Dao, the fullness of the Great Dao. If you ascend upward, and I am in the Profound Void, then I will be the one who obstructs your Dao, your enemy.”
Wei Yunshu suddenly turned her head and glared at her. “You still don’t trust me?”
Luo Lingfeng: “On your path of chasing the Dao, you have never looked back.”
Wei Yunshu frowned. “But isn’t this also what you wanted to see?” Whether it was Sang Que or Sang Buwei, they had both received the Emperor’s guidance. In this incarnation, if it weren’t for the unexpected change of the Tai Sui Golden Sand, she would have also been guided by the Emperor.
Luo Lingfeng sneered and said lightly, “I did it all for your sake.”
Hearing this, Wei Yunshu’s mood became very heavy. This was not the kind of ‘help’ she wanted. She knelt before Luo Lingfeng and said with grave seriousness, “Then grant me this one last thing.”
Luo Lingfeng brought over a vine with green leaves and gently tapped it under Wei Yunshu’s cheek. It slowly moved down her skin, pausing slightly at her collarbone. “What do you want me to grant you?” Her tone was still nonchalant.
Wei Yunshu looked up at her, her eyes bursting with an extraordinary splendor. She stared at her without blinking and said softly, “I want you to love me.”
Luo Lingfeng did not answer.
The surroundings were silent. The sound of the wind passing by her ears was clearly audible.
Wei Yunshu suddenly sensed that something was wrong. She looked at Luo Lingfeng and said, “When I was in the Profound Void, you and I both knew that the Dao is infinite, that yin and yang prove each other, and that my flaw cannot be filled without you. If so, you must have known that after defeating Daoist Xuan Yi, I would not continue to climb upward with that pushing force, and would not let the flaw of the Great Dao cover the Profound Void! Then you—” The vine around her neck gently swept, and a strange sensation spread along her skin to her limbs. Wei Yunshu pressed down on Luo Lingfeng’s mischievous hand and said with dissatisfaction, “Then everything you said before was a lie to me.”
“You found out?” Luo Lingfeng said in surprise. She gave Wei Yunshu a meaningful glance. “Then what can you do about it?” She let Wei Yunshu grab her wrist. With just a thought, a vine gently spun, and the tender branches and leaves passed between the two of them. “I just didn’t want to see you. No matter the reason, when I see you, there is always a little bit of unhappiness in my heart. If the emotional self had not entered the world, these emotions would not be so obvious, but—” Halfway through her words, Luo Lingfeng stopped again. She looked at Wei Yunshu and asked in a very casual tone, “Have you ever thought? Before the battle with the Northern Continent, if you had been willing to turn back, what would the outcome have been?”
Wei Yunshu’s whole body stiffened. She looked at Luo Lingfeng with a bitter expression. After saying the word “I,” she didn’t know how to express her feelings.
Luo Lingfeng didn’t want an answer either. She raised her left hand and wiped the corner of Wei Yunshu’s eye. “When I had no will to live, I thought of digging up the four great spiritual veins and turning the entire Fu Li Immortal Realm into a void mystic cave, but in the end, I didn’t do it. You all have always been full of hope, but in me, I could not see a future.”
“I just felt that you wanted to settle all your past debts. The life I owed you should also be returned to you. Otherwise, how could the karma be settled? It wasn’t for the Fu Li Immortal Realm; it was for you.”
Before Wei Yunshu could speak, Luo Lingfeng changed the subject again. “Actually, when I was in the Wu Xiang Heaven Domain, I also had a way to avoid Daoist Xuan Yi’s devouring of my qi and intent. But can you guess why I sent my spirit to the Fu Li Immortal Realm?”
Wei Yunshu opened her mouth and asked blankly, “Why?”
Luo Lingfeng glanced at her and smiled radiantly. “Don’t you prefer my emotional self?” The moonlight shone on the side of her face, reflecting a trace of emotion in her deep eyes that was no longer hidden. The vines blown by the wind were really in the way. Wei Yunshu let out a little of her spiritual power, and the obstacle between the two of them instantly disappeared without a trace.
“No,” Wei Yunshu shook her head. She looked at Luo Lingfeng and said softly, “The past, the present, the future—every one of you, I love them all. No matter the moment, I will always be with you.”